Thursday
So yesterday I got to chat with Snuffles. I am aware that he's always in the States during summer but I had no idea that he wasn't coming back here anymore. He's gonna study there and practically live there forevaah. I didn't know that I would never ever see him again. Fine, so that's an exaggeration, but I mean this is the type of um "missing" that I was trying to well, avoid? For example, I know I would miss a lot of people, I probably would never see some people in a really long time, but the fact that you can tell yourself that they're just a couple of FX rides away helps a lot. Even though you know you would never really take those FX rides (unless there's an emergency), the fact that they're still within your reach comforts you. You probably weren't that close even but still the thought that they're still around keeps you well, feeling safe? Feeling like you're still attached to the people you truly truly cared about. Yeah. I hope I'm not just babbling but whatever, what I'm saying is get-able. :)) Please do try, you're reading this already anyways. I just realized that I kept using you/your, but in fact, I'm really just talking about what I feel. :)) Anyways, so yeah. I'm gonna miss you Snuffles. :D Anyways, so apparently he's gonna take Bio there then go to Med, then he asked me about my life plan. And all I could say was:


Wow, the first thing he said was my life plan sounded like a scavenger hunt. :)) Well I guess. But really, when he asked me that question, this was all I could think of. Well, I could've said that I see myself in the corporate world, well, because of my course because it's the only place I can see myself in. Well, at least, professionally. I can't see myself in a lab or in building houses or in a hospital, stuff like that. But then I realized, I'd go into the corporate world to accomplish my life plan. It sounds so shallow, I know. But whatever. So how do I plan to achieve my life plan?

Get rich. Okay, so a lot of people (if not everyone, I now know that there are people who honestly don't want to be rich) wants to be rich. Well, it makes some of your problems a lot easier. I guess. Then I have so many dreams like have a beach house, have a hacienda, travel around all the time, have a ton of clothes, etc, etc. I could achieve these through having a lot of money. Duy. :)) There are probably other ways, but getting rich is the most obvious way. Not the easiest way, but the most obvious and most legal way. I think. But then again, maybe, I could settle by just being normal. Not the billionaire type, just the multimillionaire. Joke. :)) As long as my whole life's financially secured, then fine, I guess. As long as I'm rich enough.  I mean whatever. Money can't buy happiness right? That's why I have the two other things in my life plan. =))

Get happy. Be happy. Feel happy. Whatever. In the end, it's all that really matters if you were happy or not. It doesn't matter if you're super duper rich if you're miserable. I mean happy people, truly happy people, don't care if they have private jet or not. I mean who would want that it you're truly happy? If you're truly happy, I mean truly, then well, you wouldn't care about anything else. I mean you're happy. What else can you ask for? I mean really, right? Well, I believe that happiness is a choice. A choice that should always be taken. I guess. I mean, it's what matters, nothing else really. Ohwell. Well, I don't have to expound on this point. :)) But whatever, it's true. So maybe if I have to break down this part of my life plan, it would be, find out what makes me happiest, then go for it, whatever it takes. :D

Find true love. They say you can't find true love, it finds you. So fine, let's rephrase Be found by true love. Wow, that's so damsel in distress sounding, but ohwell. You know what, when I think about it... would you rather be a damsel in distress or the tomb raider type of girl, I seriously can't pick. I mean being tomb raider is just awesome. You get to protect yourself, go through these adventures, show off your amazing fighting skills, thinking skills, solving riddles and all. The girl who saves the day. I mean literally saves the day. It's just too cool. But being a damsel in distress is also cool, in a way. It's not about being a helpless little girl. I guess it's the whole girls in the woods type then suddenly you meet this gorgeous guy out of nowhere, suddenly a bad guy holds you captive and he rescues you. Okay, so it kinda sounds lame. :)) But I mean being rescued just looks like it feels awesome. :)) Plus, it's usually the damsel in distress stories are the romantic ones, the love at first sight stories. He sees you for one night, searches the whole for a foot that fits the shoe you left. Or the guy who was destined to be your prince anyways way before, sees you in the woods, falls in love with you in an instant, then risks his life to rescue you from a deep sleep. Amazing. In tomb raider stories, her guy is usually the traitor, but in the end, he'll change. But still. Prince Charmings would never dare to hurt that girl, but ohwell, who said Prince Charmings don't fall in love with Tomb Raider girls? :)) Status quo. Tss. :)) Ohwell, I have completely deviated from my point. So fine, be found by true love. I guess this one's the thing that's out of my control. I mean whatever. So I guess it's good that I wrote about the whole damsels vs superstrong girls because I can't write anything about my third life plan. I guess really you can't do anything about it. You just gotta be found. At the right place and at the right time. :D So yeah, I hope I'll be there soon. :D

So yeah, I guess I am still in the process of soul searching. I will find it soon. But for now, I gotta clean my desk. :)) Get rid of things that I wouldn't be needing in the next phase of my life. So yeah. It feels good to be able to have something to write about again. It's been a while. Thanks, Snuffles. :)