Last Two Minutes
Groove Nation
So yeah, that was yesterday. Two shows, 2 pm and 7 pm. I haven't stepped on a stage in a pretty long time. Well, graduation does not count. :)) Or school stages. Yeah, it's been ages. So yaay, I got to hear words like call time, company call, open house again. :D Anyways, I'm really happy that it's finally over because I was totally nervous about the whole thing. So it wasn't that bad, I think we did pretty well. Good job, Sagala. :D So anyways, I made this promise to myself that after the recital I will go soul searching. This summer workshop covered most of my summer. I'm not complaining, it was really fun. :D I only get to dance in a studio every summer since high school. So yeah. Anyways, still, I haven't really thought about college that much. I'm more of a one-thing-at-a-time person. So I had to concentrate on my summer classes first before I actually think about college. I guess I'm afraid that when I think about college in the middle of summer, I'm gonna break down in tears or get so excited I'm gonna miss some stuff. :)) I'm not sure if you get me, but ohwell. So yeah, after the 2 pm show yesterday, I realized that well today is the last day of May. I'm lucky tomorrow's not our first day, or even next Monday. Very lucky indeed. So yeah. I'm gonna go soul searching now. :)) Anyways, back to Groove Nation, I'll post some pictures in my Multiply site, duy. Maybe a few here too. :D Yesterday day was one heck of a day. :D I loved it.



Soul Searching

Anyways, yeah, I mentioned that I'm gonna search for my soul. Seriously. I mean it's a whole new phase in my life yada yada. I mean I haven't even mentally prepared myself for college. I'm not talking academically (It'll take me months to mentally prepare myself for that.) , I'm saying I'm not mentally prepared to face new people, miss a whole lot of my best-est friends, the "freedom" that comes with college. It hasn't really sunk in yet. Most of my friends are already totally excited about college. I mean I am too. It's just that I feel like I haven't totally I don't know "gotten over" high school. Ohnoes. This is gonna be an emo post. Here we go. :)) Again, I still can't imagine waking up 6 am for school, figuring out which corridor to take (right or left), saying hi to teachers I've known for years, smiling to the guards which have been very very nice, seeing familiar faces, knowing a few things about them [through stories or Multiply or Facebook. :)) ] I guess it's the whole leaving my comfort zone kind of thing that kinda freaks me out. Yeah. I'm trying to remember now if I went through this same thing when I transferred to Pisay for High School. I guess not. Maybe because I was just too young then. I only remember getting excited, meeting up with Angeli and Gian, going to the flag cem with this familiar face from MSA, who thinks like me in more ways that surprised me. I lined up behind this girl with the very very very very long hair, whose hair is now short, and this girl who was in dread locks, whose hair is now very very very straight. They talked about their hair, I wasn't talking to anybody, that fact did not freak me out. I wonder why. Now I think, if this happens to me in college, I'd prolly freak out that I'm the only one not making friends. Later on, in the auditorium I got to talk to the long-haired girl which got me talking to this dread locks hair girl. The next day I met her football friend, this super quiet snowy white girl, until now is still snowy white. We met this friendly short girl then this seemingly mataray girl then this girl who really irritated me because she wore shades. (Apparently she had something in her eye that day. :)) ) All of these people became my very best-est friends. I can go on and on about how I met all of the people that have changed my life but it'd be totally long. And now we're gonna go in different directions. :(( I'm gonna start to cry now. :D Mygosh. Ohwell. This is precisely why I will soul search. I need to let this out. I need to acknowledge this feeling that I'm leaving high school behind. My favorite adviser told me that high school really is different. "Iba ung bond." Yeah. I do believe that. My brother is still with his high school friends, some of me older friends from SHS still hang out with their high school friends. So yeah. Well, I'm gonna make sure that I see my best-est friends all the time, still. :D Anyways, there's this guy last night from Groove Nation too. We were in the backstage getting ready to get our certificates, he suddenly told this girl from AC I think. "Seryoso ako, i-treasure mo ang high school mo, nakaka-miss." Sentiiii. :| Yeaah. I'm sure I'm gonna miss high school, but I want to enjoy college too. I mean really enjoy it. :D They say it's fun. :))

So yeah, I'm gonna go search my soul first. :D Be sure of myself and other things before I take the plunge into this whole new place. We're having a prepcourse on Wednesday til Friday so I'm hoping to more or less stumble upon my soul before Wednesday, so that I'm am conditioned to take in college. I mean it would just be so sad for me to suddenly breakdown in the middle of our prepcourse now, wouldn't it? :))

So yeah.
Let's go!